I Have Never Acted my Age

I HAVE NEVER ACTED MY AGE

I have never acted my age;

I was always the young one,

paid half-fare on the buses

nearly three years over the limit.

One summer I served

behind a Highland hotel bar

but back in Glasgow my age

was challenged in an off-licence.

For twenty years

I haven't appeared to age,

still seemed to be

in my late twenties.

A few stray greys

I've noted for some time

but today I saw my face

in a huge, enlarging mirror

that showed the grey hairs

even in my beard

almost out-numbering the dark.

Someone once said

I'd be bald before thirty.

I rightfully scorned them

yet I will be grey

before fifty.

I have never acted my age

but will wear my grey hairs

with dignity

scorning all caps

and hair-tints

Maybe I will no longer shout

at the children or mutter

at the dog,

nor tear my hair out

when clients cancel

else I'll be bald at eighty.

I cannot count the grey hairs

so will put away

the calculator,

live each day

four and twenty hours,

leave the acting to others.

© Gerald England

Composed: Gee Cross, 27th July 1990

Publications

1991 The Affiliate (Canada)

1991 PENNINE 25 (Heckmondwike, Fighting Cock Press)