and i used to en-© GERALD ENGLAND
joy philosophy until
i discovered sex
Composed: Oldham, 1st October 1974
Publication
1981 Magma (UK)
and i used to en-© GERALD ENGLAND
joy philosophy until
i discovered sex
We were not the only ones© GERALD ENGLAND
to drive down the river,
discover the vast arena
of unmapped stone
Forty miles to the west
the sun lit the sea
From terraced walls
we surveyed the land between
Terrace upon terrace upon terrace
descended from the tower
past the weedgrown bath
arched over a stonestrewn track;
beneath each wall a
wilderness of peace
In the amphitheatre
a lady in white had camped
Each tree became a soldier
water oozing like blood
from neglected wounds
This fortress
manned by three legions
is left unfenced, unsigned
for the venturesome to find
a cabbage should not© GERALD ENGLAND
be despised for at least it
continues to grow
those people who eat© GERALD ENGLAND
biscuits in bed shall sleep on
the crumbs that remain
© GERALD ENGLAND
Quietly a hospital lost another patient
while a son was being driven
to his sick father's side too late
It was Sunday but the wrong time of the month
and a woman ill at home in bed
waited the return of the driver
Somewhere in a distant bed
the mother of his child
was mourning for herself
Another mother left her sick child
to attend the bereaved
on a warm afternoon walk
Sympathy saturated souls
sought out the threads that bound
That afternoon
at least one angel was made
In the little Methodist chapel© GERALD ENGLAND
edging on to the moor
the couple drank tea,
preparing themselves for a journey,
the rock-backed house only
yards away their hope
A staircase spiralled skyward
The pure melodic line
of the chattering chaffinch
was harmonised only by the ivy,
climbing like a solicitor's beard
enveloping hollow walls
There was nothing to fear in the reservoir
bursting its dam in the next valley
A choir sang in the crystal water
The couple drank deep
There there were stones,© GERALD ENGLAND.
glacier-deposited on Grewelthorpe Moor,
stones shaped like door posts
too big for a man alone to move,
but for a group of men to move,
no monumental task.
It was a man from Kirby Malzeard
needed doorposts,
wanted the stones.
The other men had pledged him their help.
It was not the men of Grewelthorpe
who needed the stones.
The stones that were there
were their stones.
No other needful men could have
what they, one day, might need.
The stones stayed,
were not removed from the moor.
Doorposts were quarried elsewhere,
machined and transported.
The stones were never used.
They lie there now,
shaped by the wind -
weathered monuments
to the men of Grewelthorpe's greed.
Beyond the sun© Gerald England
beyond Andromeda
beyond the black holes of the Anti-Thou
in the white light of eternity
our souls will mate
You sit beside me in the car
The slow policeman
whom I dare to overtake
on the motorway
is en route to a rugby match
I do not know who won or lost
There is fog on the tops
returning
This time I do not dare
to overtake
I put my trust in the eternal Thou
And beyond the sun
or in an upstairs room
I am not afraid of the Anti-Thou
I shall continue the journey
with you beside me
We shall proceed
protected
travelling at a safe speed
We shall fall into no black holes
In the white light of eternity
our souls will mate

The woman is seated
leaning
almost
against the blankness of the wall
She is covered entirely in her cloak
Her eyes are closed in sleep
her pale face tilted
From the closeknitted brow
runs her sharp bone nose
to a tight mouth that is not smiling
Her hands are closed beneath her cloak
She remains here
nearly
sleeping
Her tiredness
is what binds her to the world
which itself is closed in tiredness
to her
© Gerald England
There hadn't always been a rainbow© GERALD ENGLAND
only it was there when needed
impressing itself upon her
needful or not
She wanted the rainbow
even though she never saw
seven colours clear
Sometimes and it was usually winter
she could distinguish five
But mostly there were three
with a merging in between
Inside there was violet -
flowers and blossom when his kiss
gave bloom to her becoming
In the middle of it all the blue
of the clear sea on the sand-dunes
where they had loved when she
no longer liked him coming to her bed
The tide had rolled over them
as they heated the night
into the outer red of passion
and the violence of tearing apart
She had wanted the rainbow
It was real
She had analysed the spectrum
measured every wavelength
knew it as she could only know a man
But she wanted more than the rainbow
She wanted the pot of gold
that was not of the rainbow
but lay beyond its end
She did not find her pot of gold
She had by then destroyed the rainbow
She had lost reality for the wanting of a dream
Somewhere I saw a Southwest wind© GERALD ENGLAND
and I heard a sun rise in the distance
These are the only signs
of an Early Spring
The year is but a few days old
It has been a frosty start
Winter has still to accomplish her work
So little seems to change
So much continues as before
One day seems much like another
I should not have given the old year such a kick with my boot
I cannot welcome the New Year with bruised toes
It deserves better,
especially if there is to be an Early Spring
There is ice lying on the upper moor
I slipped and fell,
rolled in the brittle standing grass,
grazed my knee on a hard rock
The injury has healed
but even in the valley there is no heat
I want to warm the New Year with kisses,
to give it my whole body,
but I have been deaf to the rising of the sun
and blind to the Southwest wind
I will throw all that remains
on the fire
I shall use all the fuel at my command
I will force the fire to burn
It will be an Early Spring